Chapter 380 Home and Family

He said he would wait for my reply.

How can I reply?

I really want to agree. I really want to go home with the person I love every day and say, "I had a hard day today."

I wanted to be able to cook a messy dinner together during our downtime and eat it all with smiles and frowns on our faces.

I want someone to listen to me and say "I'm so tired" when I'm tired, and then I can lean on his shoulder and cry silently for a while.

But do I deserve that kind of life?

This morning when I was preparing breakfast, the buttered bread fell from my hand. I thought it was going to stain the carpet, but I quickly bent down and caught it.

This action is very beautiful, just like a martial arts master.

But when I looked up, the room was empty.

I really want to have someone looking at me there. I can smile and ask him, "Am I awesome?"

He also laughed and teased me, saying that he had never seen such an agile lawyer.

Then we happily start this day, or every day in the future.

I really want to promise him.

But this way of me is selfish and unfair to him.

As I said, I am a person with many flaws. My miserable childhood made me stubborn and withdrawn. My troubled native family made me feel anxious and sad all day long. I cannot take these things into a relationship.

This is not fair to my significant other.

Xiaosun is a native of Chengdu. His parents are both literary and artistic workers. They are so polite and polite that I was deeply impressed by them after seeing them only once. His family is very similar to mine. They both have children. Xiao Sun has a younger sister.

Their parents are still willing to give birth to a daughter after giving birth to a son for the first time. This seems to me to be a fantasy.

Moreover, I have seen that girl. She has been doted on by her parents and brother since she was a child. That kind of self-confidence burst out uncontrollably, making her invincible.

But what am I?

I'm a monster.

"I can't agree." I said in a deep voice. When I said these words, I felt like I was cut by an invisible knife.

"Why?" Xiao Sun said anxiously, "Sister Zhang, am I being a little abrupt? If you need time to think about it, I can wait..."

"We are all adults. We don't act like children. We don't need time to think about this kind of thing." I shook my head, "If it doesn't work, it just won't work. I'm sorry."

Seeing Xiao Sun's disappointed expression, I felt the invisible knife pass through my body again.

It hurts.

"Okay... ok..." Xiao Sun nodded with a disappointed expression, "Sister Zhang, don't apologize to me. It's me who should apologize. I'm really, really sorry..."

"No." I said to him with a smile, "It's a good thing to dare to express yourself. Xiao Sun, you are a very good person. I rejected you because of my own problems. I hope you won't be sad."

"Well..." Although Xiao Sun nodded, I could see from his eyes that he was extremely sad.

After attending Mengmeng's wedding, I gave her half a month's leave.

Although she wants to come back to work, the honeymoon is a once-in-a-lifetime event, and I would rather she take paid time off than use this precious time to work.

A week passed quickly. Xiaosun and I handled a commercial dispute case together. However, this time due to insufficient evidence provided by both parties, the verdict was not pronounced, and a second court hearing will be held soon.

"Xiao Sun, please keep an eye on me for the next two days." I said, "I have to go home."

"Go home?" He raised his eyebrows, "Sister Zhang, you look sad every time you get a call from home. Did something happen at home?"

"No, it's a good thing." I said with a smile, "My brother is getting married."

"Brother...?" Xiao Sun was obviously surprised, "Sister Zhang, do you have a younger brother?"

"yes."

"You are so calm. I have never heard you say that you have a younger brother."

"Just because I didn't mention it doesn't mean I haven't." I breathed a sigh of relief, "I haven't been home for many years. This time is the last time. No matter what, I want to show up."

"The last time...?" Xiao Sun obviously didn't understand. "Is there one last time to see your biological brother?"

"Yes." I was obviously a little happy. "Anyway, I'll be back soon. The fastest is one day, and the most is two days. I'll leave everything to you during these two days."

"Don't worry, Sister Zhang, it's no problem." Xiao Sun nodded, "But...don't you need me to take you off? Will you drive back?"

"I'm not driving." I said, "There's no need to be so public. I'll just go back by car."

"Okay, then you should pay attention to safety and send me a WeChat message when you arrive."

"No problem." I nodded and said to him, "If something happens at home, you can go and do it first. There shouldn't be any lawsuits recently except for the business dispute."

"My home is in Chengdu!" Xiao Sun said to me with a smile, "Don't worry, I will definitely stick to my post."

Looking at Xiao Sun's condition, I feel very happy.

He didn't distance himself from me because I rejected him.

As long as I can work with people I know well, I feel confident.

He will definitely find a better partner, but that person can never be me.

I bought a bus ticket, put on casual clothes and set off.

It was impossible for me to let the villagers know how good my life was in Chengdu, otherwise they would become a bottomless pit hovering over my life and suck all the blood out of me.

A bus, ordinary clothes, and a light makeup that is just right are enough for my trip.

I am just an ordinary person. I don’t have extra money to help them, nor do I have the ability to arrange jobs for any idle people in the city. I am just me, an ordinary person.

The car drove out of Chengdu and circled on the mountain road for more than two hours before finally taking me to a place ten kilometers away from the village.

Next, I need to take a black car and then a three-wheeled vehicle.

I set off in the afternoon and didn’t enter the village until the evening.

The village is indeed preparing for a wedding. The road is full of tables and the telephone poles are covered with red paper. The wedding will start tomorrow.

“Laidi?!” An aunt suddenly recognized me.

"Yes." I nodded and looked at her, "I'm back."

"Tsk..." She pouted with a little disdain, and then squeezed out an ugly smile, "How many years have you not been back? Is the city so good?"

"Not good." I shook my head, "But I have to come back to get married and become successful. I am the elder sister, so I must come back."

"Really?" She nodded with a fake smile, "Then you should go home soon."

I nodded at her, took a long breath and walked towards "home".

Since the first day of entering high school, I have not lived at home.

When I was in school, I lived in the school, and worked outside on weekends and winter and summer vacations. This place is very unfamiliar to me.

The atmosphere of the villagers also doubled my pressure. They are like the best intelligence agents in the world. Every word you say at home will spread throughout the village the next day.

Especially me.

A stubborn woman who is unwilling to earn tuition for her younger brother and insists on going to school by herself.

A dissolute woman who fell in love with the "bright lights and wine" of the city and is unwilling to go home to see.

A miserable woman who is over 30 years old and still unmarried, and no one is willing to take her in.

A stingy woman who doesn’t care about her brother’s marriage, and doesn’t pay for the bride price or the down payment for the house.

A failed woman who has worked hard for more than ten years but still hasn’t “returned home in glory”.

This is how the villagers see me. I am a famous joke in the village.

My existence is a classic topic that every household will discuss and never lose.