Chapter 2704 Lack of Sense of Accomplishment

Who am I, why am I me, the answer to this question is usually to identify oneself through outsiders, and to distinguish oneself from them through the differences between oneself and them.

Duran told Shinji Ikari that it was not him who was driving Unit-01, because as long as there was no spiritual barrier, Shinji Ikari could become anyone, even an apostle, because humans and apostles were originally the same thing, emerging from the same source. As long as there is no AT force field, everyone is the same.

Shinji Ikari has been thinking about why he is so unlucky, but Duran said that his troubles are not unique to Shinji Ikari, but belong to everyone.

Shinji Ikari must be unable to turn around, otherwise he would not have spent so much time to complete himself in the TV version. After the boy defeated all the monsters, witnessed the sacrifice, and experienced hardships, he finally walked out of self-loathing and completed his growth amid everyone's congratulations.

Recognize your own shortcomings, then be better to yourself, and then try to like others, and be firm that I am me.

Now Duran said these, Shinji Ikari didn't understand at all. If he understood, he would not be a problem boy, but a young Buddha, who would directly achieve nirvana and enlightenment, and be free from the sea of ​​suffering.

The boy now only felt that some of what Duran said was right, and some he didn't understand. The right part was the division in history. Humans have been constantly distinguishing themselves from others from the beginning, and then hurting others.

What he didn't understand was the integration part. The human race continued to expand, constantly accommodating others within their own scope, but constantly creating circles within the race to keep themselves different from their compatriots. Shinji Ikari felt that humans really needed to divide more than integrate.

So Shinji Ikari didn't think he could be someone else, and didn't think that when he was on Unit-01, others could bear his pain. He still hid behind the AT force field.

"Teacher, I can't understand what you said, just like I can't understand you." Ikari Shinji said: "If the gap between oneself and others can really disappear, then we are standing here now, shouldn't we understand each other? Why don't I understand what you are saying? Or teacher, are you hiding something from me?"

The boy asked a question very cleverly. According to what Duran said, if they think with the idea of ​​harmony, then the two of them should be able to understand each other, but the problem is that the boy doesn't know Duran's purpose at all.

"You are very smart and a rough jade, so I will teach you well. When you reach your father's age, your achievements will definitely surpass him." Duran used the encouragement education method and used a decisive conclusion to inject vitality into Ikari Shinji.

It was indeed the first time that Ikari Shinji heard such praise. In the past, someone praised him for playing the cello well, and it was precisely because of the affirmation that he could keep going. After all, the cello is his best skill, the only thing that can make him better than others. It was the first time I heard someone say that he could surpass his father. To be honest, the position of Neuron Commander is already a world-class figure. Even if he went abroad, he could hear the name of Ikari Gendou. The boy never thought that he could become a big celebrity like his father. Although he is now a celebrity, a celebrity within Seele, he is mainly famous for the fact that ‘Gendou Ikari sent his son to Unit-01’. As for the fact that the boy defeated the apostles twice in a row, it is not something to be proud of.

Defeating the apostles is not the work of Shinji Ikari alone. It can even be said that Shinji Ikari did not gain anything from defeating the apostles.

The first time he went up, he ran away inexplicably, and Shinji Ikari’s memory is vague. Shinji Ikari’s performance was not good the second time. In the end, although he defeated the apostles in violation of orders, it can only be regarded as the apostles are too weak, and it is luck rather than strength.

After that, Shinji Ikari will continue to fight, but most of the time he will do it according to orders and mechanically complete the requirements of others, rather than using his subjective initiative to defeat the apostles. Even if he fought for Rei Ayanami twice, he showed some fighting spirit in the battles with the Thunder Angel and the Power Angel, but more often he really completed the orders and won, rather than discovering the weaknesses of the apostles in the battle and defeating the enemy with his superb driving skills.

All of Ikari Shinji's battles were put forward by the Operation Room, and then Ikari Shinji completed them. It can be said that there was no sense of accomplishment. Once he left the Operation Room or the expected plan, he could only rely on rampage. The role of the pilot did not seem to be so great in the entire process of defeating the enemy. Anyone could be replaced, but the synchronization rate between Ikari Shinji and Unit-01 was relatively high.

Ikari Shinji's victory never belonged to one person. Without him, other people could also win as long as they followed the orders of the Operation Room.

As for the few times of rampage, although it had to be Ikari Shinji, the boy was actually confused and didn't know why he won, as if he had a guardian spirit.

In fact, in Seele's plan, humans led the fusion, and there was no special existence. Everyone was a part. It was just that Ikari Gendo sent his son up and gave his son the treatment of the protagonist, making Ikari Shinji seem to have become the unique pilot of Unit-01, as if Ikari Shinji would not work. In fact, it was not. In Seele's plan, there was no protagonist, because in the end, humans completed it, and everyone was the same.

It was Gendō Ikari who made Shinji Ikari a special existence and brought a singularity to the entire completion plan.

Of course, the boy didn't think he was the protagonist. After all, he just followed the routine in the battle. Someone else might be able to execute it better. So even if he won, the boy didn't feel any sense of accomplishment. It was obviously a great cause to save humanity, but the boy only felt empty and meaningless, because he didn't subjectively want to save humanity, but just completed the work assigned to him by others, and he didn't like this job.

Ikari Shinji didn't like driving Unit-01, he was just forced to do it, and saving humanity was only a by-product of completing the task. For the boy, responding to the expectations of the big sister, protecting the safety of the beautiful girl, getting his father's approval, etc. were the direct reasons for him to drive Unit-01, and these goals needed to be achieved by completing the driving work.

If the work was not completed, then Ikari Shinji didn't think about the destruction of mankind, but was just worried about disappointing the big sister, losing the beautiful girl, and disappointing his father.

So Duran should encourage education and train the boy, connect his fate with the fate of others, take him out of the greenhouse, see the world, and train his skills and voice, so that he can leave the war room or not rely on rampage in the battle, and still be able to independently complete the battle and win, and improve his ability and subjective initiative.

The hero's harvest is not only the reward at the end, but also the experience learned in the battle. If you just read the script and complete the combat mission in the war room, you are just a mediocre driver. If you only rely on Unit-01 to complete the combat, you are just a lucky driver. Don't rely on the big sister in the war room, and don't rely on the good mother in Unit-01. Ikari Shinji must learn to fight by himself.

"It's okay if you can't understand what I say now. The important thing is that I can guide you to become a real driver. Although you are sitting on Unit-01 now, you are just a part and have never achieved the unity of machine and me. A real driver can defeat the enemy with just his voice."

The boy said that it was a driver or a ktv killer?