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I have been working all night for the past few days, and now I have slowed down a little.

I am tired physically and mentally; I have to think and say a few words.

I know that the end of the full attendance game will cause dissatisfaction among everyone.

But I think that not everyone can understand it now... I am the one who is most unwilling and unwilling to end this matter.

I don't like to give up halfway, and I don't like to break my promise.

When I realized that I had to give up, I was struggling and painful inside, but I didn't even have time to deal with this emotion because I still had writing tasks to complete.

I also thought about forcing the update of the thriller side to continue. In fact, I was forcing myself to write the chapter on the 17th, but time and energy did not allow it, so I couldn't continue.

It is gratifying that most readers still understand me. I would like to say sorry to these readers again here for failing your expectations.

If some of my words later hurt your feelings, I also hope that you will not misunderstand that those words are not said to you.

I said it to another group of people.

Now there are indeed more people reading my books, so there is such a group of people.

These uncles don't care about or sympathize with other people's situations. Perhaps only when "emergencies" happen to them will they think that the series of compromises that follow are taken for granted, but when it comes to others, they will ignore it.

Even if I have been writing for so many years and have always done my best to fulfill every promise I have made, it is meaningless to these people; as long as I break my promise once, they will say "You talk as farts, and go back on your word."

So I think these people have either never broken their promises due to any objective factors in their lives, or simply lack the most basic tolerance, understanding, and respect for others.

This has nothing to do with reading genuine or pirated books. I am not targeting this point, because some of these uncles also read genuine books.

I don't know what kind of environment these people grew up in, what kind of education they received, and what kind of cognition they have, so that they think that the author seems to owe them something, and feel that they are superior as "consumers".

Even if I make a living by selling words, I take other people's money, and others also take my words, and neither owes me anything, so why should I be servile?

This world is fair. I will naturally welcome those friends who truly support and like me with a smile. If I make a mistake, I will admit it to them. I don't ask for forgiveness, and I don't need you to understand my struggles and efforts that are not known to outsiders, but I sincerely say to you, I'm sorry.

As for those uncles, I don't think I have any need to respect or, as you expect, to lick a group of people who don't know what respect is.

You can go to an environment that welcomes you and can provide you with that pathetic sense of superiority, and don't feel uncomfortable here.

I have never told my readers to watch if you like, and get out if you don't; I have always used this attitude towards those uncles. To be honest, these people, if you want to leave, leave quickly, don't always think that a place will lose a lot if you are missing, how much shock you will have when you leave, and how reluctant and shocked others will be.

The world will continue to operate as usual without anyone, and it will be the same without me, a word seller.

Finally, I also say to all the uncles that I failed to complete the game, I'm sorry, because I also broke my promise to you. Because I am still a person who knows how to respect others, regardless of whether these people are worthy of my respect. Speaking of the facts, I was wrong.

Okay, let's wrap it up.

Many people say that I have changed.

Maybe.

I didn't write single chapters before because I didn't like to write.

A few years ago, the first single chapter I wrote was asked by the editor at that time.

I have been advised by more than one person - the birds that sing get food, I should fight for more for myself, I should let readers develop the habit of voting, etc.

So, I also started to write some single chapters. I tried my best to write single chapters well, even if they were some utilitarian texts, I wanted to use them to bring happiness to others. I tried not to ask for votes directly as much as possible, because I was psychologically resistant. Therefore, I came up with the full attendance game. As a person who updates very slowly, I use some hard indicators and the "commitment" that I value most to constrain myself.

I didn't expect that this would be the end after an unexpected situation.

I am still very grateful to those readers who treat me sincerely, and I will not be disappointed for those who don't respect me.

Perhaps, this is also an opportunity for me to return to the original state.

I want to tell you that, in fact, I have not changed.

I am a person who is difficult to change. It is you, the spectators, and the world that have changed.

I have not been to a writer's gathering at Qidian. I try not to attend any activities that are not related to writing. I am still writing the stories I want to write. I have never "flooded" as many people say. Whether you just glance at it or read it carefully, I have spent a long time writing each chapter.

I wrote my first book and the first chapter with such a mood and effort, and I am still writing it now.

Even if I write slowly and very hard, my bottom line will not change. I have to be responsible for my work and pass this test myself.

Maybe you have grown up, the world has progressed, and I am still where I am.

But I think this is good.

I will not post anything other than the main text if I have nothing to do in the future.

As I quoted a former captain of the fifth division many years ago: "Admiration is the feeling farthest from understanding."

I think I should retreat to a more appropriate distance and communicate with everyone again with the simplest words in the story.

At least now, I think this is better. (To be continued.)