Chapter 1041
He has never been so uncomfortable, and he has never felt so sorry for anyone, even his own younger brother, even his favorite Fang Chengyin in the past, he has always been indifferent, and the experience of losing his parents since childhood made him prematurely As an adult, he took on the responsibility of taking care of his younger brother and carrying a family prematurely, and looked down on everything prematurely. He is also selfish, and his survival rules do not allow him to be easily emotional and easy to be tied down by anyone, so he really He has never felt heartbroken so clearly for a single person. At this moment, as long as he can stop Chen Qingxuan from crying, as long as he can appease Chen Qingxuan's sadness, he is even willing to give his heart.
This is undoubtedly dangerous. For a person who is used to indifference and rationality, and always in control of everything, this kind of mood is extremely dangerous, but he deliberately allows himself to be so dangerous along the way. In fact, he has long been unable to explain clearly. When did you start putting yourself in danger?
Perhaps it was from that day, in the courtyard of the storm, the young man raged and made a clean break. He was overwhelmed by fear, for fear that he would become strangers to this young man from then on; perhaps it was from that rainy day, in the simple inn, the two Chatting calmly, sharing cheap mooncakes, that simple warmth really made him nostalgic; or maybe it was the truth words uttered by the drunk young man under the golden sunset, which made him ridicule and feel pity...
He has already taken risks with his own life, and he has watched himself go more and more dangerous step by step. In the past, he could find excuses for his adventures, such as brotherhood, such as taking care of each other in a foreign land, but now Facing such a fragile and helpless Chen Qingxuan, he had no excuses and no way out.
"Kong Wenmin, I...I want to go back to Ninggu Pagoda..." After crying for an unknown amount of time, Chen Qingxuan suddenly raised his head, looking anxiously at Kong Wenmin with red and swollen eyes, "You...you take me back to Ninggu Pagoda Is the tower okay?"
"Okay, I'll take you back to Ninggu Pagoda," Kong Wenmin said in a deep voice, looking at the young man's face so close, his heart was beating like a drum, and an unprecedented throbbing surged into his heart, like a man showing his timidity in front of a beautiful girl He moved his eyes uncomfortably, "I will take you away as soon as the city gate opens at dawn."
Leaning in his arms, Chen Qingxuan stared blankly at the pitch-black night, and suddenly asked after a while: "Kong Wenmin, grandma, why...why didn't she disappear?"
"I was going to tell you..." Kong Wenmin said slowly, and then told Chen Qingxuan all the ins and outs of the matter.
"Jiang Jinwan? Who is Jiang Jinwan?" Chen Qingxuan gritted his teeth and thumped the ground with his fists tightly, "I want to kill him! Kill him with my own hands!"
Kong Wenmin held Chen Qingxuan's hand in a hurry, seeing that the back of his hand was red from his beating, his heart ached terribly, while gently rubbing Chen Qingxuan's hand, he said: "You don't need to do anything, Wen Jie has already killed him." gone."
"But what's the use of killing him?" Chen Qingxuan said with his head down, his voice choked up again, "Grandma will never come back."
Kong Wenmin didn't speak, stretched out his hand and rubbed the back of Chen Qingxuan's head, and while pulling him to lean on his shoulder, said softly: "Back then, when my parents died, I thought the sky was falling, but I couldn't fall down." , I still have Wen Jie under me, so no matter how hard I suffer in the future, I will survive it. Although now and then I will think of my parents occasionally, and I will inevitably feel sad, but now, every day I feel that I have something to do. Live a fulfilling life, isn’t that what life is all about? Go forward with ups and downs, and when you pass the hurdles in front of you, there will naturally be good things waiting for you in the future.”
"Don't tell me these things," Chen Qingxuan shook his head and said, sitting up straight, looking at Kong Wenmin with some awkwardness, while lowering his head and saying, "I have read more books of sages and sages than you, and I understand all these principles. I don't need you to be my husband."